Was sich drängte rauh und feindlich, ordnet sich zu Hochgefühl.

I think I’m going to delete my themes…
Kinda lost my motivation in making them
and haven’t had time to think of one anyway.
I don’t know when I’ll do it, but I’m certain it will happen.
And maybe after a month or so, I’ll delete my blog.

You tend to distance yourself from others because you feel that they’re going to leave anyway.
Have you ever felt despair? Absolute hopelessness? Have you ever stood in the darkness and known, deep in your heart, in your spirit, that it was never, ever going to get better? That something had been lost, forever, and that it wasn’t coming back?